It seems one of the most common things I hear from women who have suffered the loss of a child through miscarriage is the feeling of being alone. Isolated, desolate and alone. Utter loneliness, because it seems no one can relate or understand the grief and the loss. I am not an expert, counselor or psychologist, but I speak from experience. From the experience of my own loss of five babies, whose lives ended all too soon and from the stories of heartache other women have poured out to me. As I reflect on my own story and those of countless other women, there are certain themes that run through our grief. Although, ... view the post
7 Takes, Victory Formation
1. Coming in with quick takes a little late this Friday. A little picture-less as I hurriedly typed these out, nonetheless linking up with Jen. 2. UPDATE: I know everyone has been eagerly awaiting the results of the Fantasy Football match off between me and my spouse. Drumroll please...I won by .53 points!! Squeaking ahead by such a small margin made the loss even more bitter for my husband to swallow. You win some, you loose some...in this case I won!! Can you tell I have been embracing the bragging rights? 3. I guess with this victory I am now ranked number 4 in our league, so I am fully back on the bandwagon. ... view the post
Bringing Awareness
October is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, it was designated by President Ronald Reagan in October 1988. I was only made aware of this a few years ago. Perhaps I found out because of the increase of technology, wide spread use of social media or having my own blinders removed when my life was personally impacted. I like to think that maybe after all of these years awareness is happening. With that said you will probably find me doing several posts this month related to the topic. No matter how short the life lived, they have forever impacted your journey and constantly remain in your ... view the post
7 Takes, Random Roundup
1. Joining Jen for a few takes, stretching it to make 7! Saying goodbye to 78 degrees and 20 mile bike rides last weekend and hello to 48. 2. Sometimes you need a little adrenaline rush and to feel like a kid again! Plus, I like an excuse to scream at the top of my lungs with no one questioning my sanity. Although, my husband may have been embarrassed that the adult sitting next to him was screaming as much, if not more than the 8 year old behind him! 3. The final countdown until my little brother gets married!!! Getting all sentimental on you, can't believe it's almost here! Since, I always acted like his ... view the post
One Day Closer
After having been through such a long stretch of not making much progress in the adoption journey, it feels surreal to actually be thinking about this dream becoming a reality! Every day being one more closer. I have been careful not to get ahead of myself in terms of preparation of the house and rooms, which I know in the end will mean we will be left scrambling. It's probably attributed more to my husband's wisdom as he tries to protect me from any hurt in the case something would fall through. I also realize our past losses have caused me to guard my heart a little more closely. Although, I have already ... view the post